Playing with my mind??

I’m at that point of my life when nothing seems to be the way it supposed to be.
Everything’s turned upside down.
I feel no safety.
So many sleepless nights, so many rainy days, so many dark thoughts.
So many people who say they want to help me, but it seems like no one understands.
They say they do, but they don’t.
So many people around me, but I still feel lonely.
They say they love me, but the most of the time I don’t feel loved.
I feel tired.
When did things went wrong?
I feel like yesterday everything was so perfect, I was happy and I had no worries.
And now it seems like everything has turned into ash.
Where did this change came from?
Is it me?
Or is it just life, who wants to play with my mind?